I am hoping that derby will get the urges out of me, the hunger and howl. Sweating and pushing over littler girls goes far, but only so far.

Remind me to tell you about the promises I used to make myself, how I was going to turn myself around, not do what i do, not need what I need. Remind me to tell you how I thought I'd be "good".

And, remind me to tell you about the hunger that burns in my gut, behind my eyes, between my legs...