It's been so long since the last time I was on my knees. This time was so much better, peaceful. I wasnt afraid. I wasnt sad. I didnt need. I was there.
Just me, no walls, no illusions, no comedy.

Before this, the pain came, the pain i had asked for. He learned where I was sensitive and where i wasnt. He learned that i will keep it in till i cant hold it any longer. He learned about me and I learned that he was listening. I learned to let go and trust just a little.

I cried when he called me a good girl. Joy