Push Me

Have you ever just wanted to push back? Have you ever just wanted to fight to lose? I know I must be insane but there is nothing I want more than to push you. I want to push you past the point of you being able to control yourself. I want to push you so you will push me.
I don’t know what I have to do to make you push me up against the wall and take me.

And it doesn’t make sense, asking for it. It doesn’t make sense, my needing this. I wish it would go away so I could stop wanting it.

I’d do whatever you wanted.

Now it sounds pathetic, a junkie in need of her fix. I need the struggle and even more, I need the high of giving in.

Why wont it go away?